A little over four weeks ago, our lives changed.
And I wouldn't change a bit about it! I feel like the last four weeks have gone
by so very quickly but that I've known our little lady for so much longer!
Norah made quite a dramatic entry into the world. Within the first seconds of
her life, I had fallen in love more than I could have ever imagined all while
being absolutely scared to death and feeling completely helpless. We knew
during my pregnancy that our baby is going to give us a run for our money, but
really Norah, did you need to start so soon?!? :)
My labor and delivery did not go a thing like I
had imagined. I truly didn't know what all to expect, but never in my
wildest dreams did I ever imagine most of what happened in the 39 hours that we
waited for our sweet baby to join us. Norah's birth story is something I'll
never forget, all 39 hours of it. A lot happened in 39 hours. It's going to be
a long post. Here we go...
Friday, January 25 is when it all started. Kurt
and I went over to my parents' house for dinner. My parents had picked up
Mexican food from La Piedad for us to eat. Our three nieces were there while
Andy and Quinn went to dinner to celebrate Quinn's birthday. When they were
finished eating, we celebrated Quinn's birthday with a delicious ice cream cake
from Coldstone. After the celebrations, Kurt and I made our way home. At 2ish
in the morning is when I was awoken by contractions. I had been having quite a
few Braxton Hicks in the weeks before this, so I didn't think too much about
them. I tossed and turned for an hour or so and continued to have contractions.
I kinda didn't believe that I could really be in labor. I thought our baby
would totally be late if we let her and I had an induction scheduled for
Sunday, January 27. However, the contractions did seem a bit different than the
ones I had had before and definitely hurt more. Shortly after 3, I woke Kurt up
because I was starting to get more uncomfortable {especially in my lower back}
and thought it was about time to begin timing the contractions.
Around 7:30/8:00, we decided it was probably time
to call the doctor. My contractions had consistently been about 7 minutes apart
since I started timing them and I was definitely beginning to feel more in
pain. The doctor on call, Dr. Moon, told me that they typically don't recommend
for women to come in until the contractions are 5 minutes apart, but that I
could come in to get checked if I wanted. I decided I wanted to go in. I felt
like it was definitely time. We got up, ate breakfast, showered, cleaned up the
house a bit, made sure we had all of our things, and headed out the door. My
contractions were starting to get worse. As we were about to walk out of the
house, a contraction brought me to tears. I'm not sure if it was all just pain.
I think I was overwhelmed and really couldn't believe this was happening. I was
also pretty nervous about being in the car for 20-30 minutes and how
contractions would feel while sitting down. It wasn't terrible. I did have a
few contractions while driving, but the traffic wasn't bad and we made it there
pretty quickly.
Kurt dropped me off at the door and I waited
inside for him. He grabbed all our things and we headed up to the maternity
ward. We walked around for a few minutes trying to figure out where we were
supposed to check in and finally found the nurse station. They knew we were
coming and took us to one of the rooms. They had me undress and hooked me up to
a couple monitors. They took some information from me and then went ahead and
checked me. I was only 2/3cm. They said they were going to leave me in that
room for a little while to keep an eye on me before they admitted me. They
didn't think I was in active labor and weren't sure that Dr. Moon would want me
to stay. Thankfully they gave me a shot of pain medicine in my thigh that did
help with some of the pain. At this point, I needed to breathe deeply and
squeeze Kurt's hand or the side of the bed with each contraction, so pain
medicine was greatly appreciated!
After a couple hours of being monitored, the
nurse came in to tell me that I wasn't going to be admitted and they needed me
to go home. She said that I could take Tylenol PM to help me get some rest. She
told me that I should come back in when the contractions were 5 minutes apart.
We were both more than frustrated. I didn't understand how they could send me
home when I was clearly in labor. Maybe I wasn't about to have a baby in the
next hour, but it was clear that a baby was going to be born soon. It also
didn't make sense to us that they would send us home especially since I had an
induction scheduled for just over 24 hours away. They unhooked me from all the
monitors, we got all of our things, and headed out to the car. I remember
sharing an elevator with a lady who was visiting someone else at the hospital.
She asked if we were coming in to have a baby. We told her that we were
actually being sent home and she could tell how frustrated we were. She didn't
understand why we would be sent home and went on to say, "Don't they know
you'll be back in a few hours anyway?!?"
At that point, we were hungry but I was in no
shape to sit in a restaurant. We decided to pick up Yats on the way home. While
we were driving, I called my parents to let them know that we had been to the
hospital but I didn't get admitted. This was the first we had told anyone that
I was in labor because we wanted to make sure it was for real. It was sorta
difficult to talk on the phone because I kept having contractions that I'd have
to breathe through.
When we got home, we both quickly ate our lunch
and got ready to get back in bed. We were exhausted because we had basically been
up all night. It was mid afternoon by the time we finally got in bed.
Thankfully I had Tylenol PM at the house because I had been taking it some
nights the last couple weeks of my pregnancy to help me sleep. I took a couple
pills and quickly fell asleep. I slept for about an hour and a half before my
contractions woke me up again. By now, my contractions were bad. I was in so
much back labor, it was unreal. I used our heating pad to help with the pain a
little bit. Really the only thing that felt okay was to lay in bed with the
heating pad and squeeze Kurt's hand every time I had a contraction. We called
Kurt's parents and asked them to come get the dogs. We weren't sure when the
baby would come, but we didn't want to have to worry about the dogs and how we
would get them to his parents' house.
Around 6 or 7, my contractions actually began to
space out even longer. They were coming every 10 minutes or so. I kinda stopped
timing them because I thought that maybe my labor was stopping and that I'd
just have to wait until Sunday evening to go in for my induction. I actually
felt a little relief. While I was still in a lot of pain, I was able to get out
of bed for a little bit to eat a quick dinner. Sitting up really didn't feel
good, so after eating I headed back up to bed. Shortly after getting back in
bed, my contractions started getting really, really bad. Like screaming in pain
to get through them. But they still weren't close enough to go to the hospital.
I was unbelievably frustrated at this point. I never imagined labor being that
painful because I had fully planned on getting an epidural before I was in that
much pain. I couldn't take the pain anymore and I felt like there was no way I
could stay at home. We debated about calling for a little while because I knew
she was going to say that I should wait until the contractions were closer
together. Around 9:30 or so, I asked Kurt to call the doctor. I
wanted to know if she could call in a pain medicine to CVS if they wouldn't let
me come into the hospital. Of course, she said she couldn't do this but said
that I could take more Tylenol PM. So I did. And I tried to sleep. 100%
impossible.
After trying to sleep/get comfortable for an
hour or so, I had had it. I told Kurt we were leaving. I didn't care that my
contractions weren't 5 minutes apart. I know my body and knew that the pain
meant I was in full on labor. We didn't call, we just stormed out of the house
and were on our way. I was pissed. This was not going how I wanted it to and I
was so mad that I wasn't already at the hospital! It hurt so much to walk and
sit so I knew the car ride was going to be terrible. And it was. This trip up
north was very different than the morning trip.
As we were leaving the house,
the garage door clicker in Kurt's car broke. We were both in complete shock
that this was actually happening! Kurt had to get out of the car and try to
figure out a way to get the door shut so that all the stuff in our garage
didn't get stolen!!! He was able to get it fixed pretty quickly and we got on
our way. Of course there was a ton of traffic at 11:00 on a Saturday night.
What was going on, who knows, but why wouldn't there be traffic at this
point?!? Oh, and we got stopped at almost every red light. ha
Thirty minutes later, we were finally at the
hospital. Because it was so late, we had to go in through the ER. Kurt dropped
me off at the door and this time I couldn't stand while I waited for him. I had
to sit in a wheelchair close to the door. An ER nurse came in and asked if I
wanted to wait inside for him, but I was so hot, being close to the door felt
good. The nurse took us upstairs to a room next to the one we were in that
morning. She took my information while another nurse came in to take my vitals,
get the monitors hooked up, and check me. I'm pretty sure there was no question
about them admitting me. They weren't taking their time like they were that
morning. At this point, I was shaking because I was in so much pain and my
blood pressure had spiked. The nurse quickly checked me and I was 6 cm. All
that I could think was, "ARE YOU FREAKING KIDDING ME! 6 CM! I should have
been at the hospital hours ago!!!!" The nurse called Dr. Moon to let her
know that I was in fact in active labor and they were in the process of admitting
me. The nurse asked if/when I wanted an epidural and my answer was, "Yes,
hours ago."
Kurt helped me into a wheelchair and grabbed all
of our things. The nurse showed us to our labor and delivery room. She let me
know that before I could get an epidural, she needed to give me a whole bag of
fluid. She put my IV in and pumped a bag of fluid into me as quickly as she
could. About 11:45, the nurse was able to call the anesthesiologist to come in
for my epidural. Thank the Lord! The doctor was extremely nice and told me
everything that she was doing while she worked. The first part hurt a little
bit but the rest was just a little uncomfortable. I ended up having a couple
contractions while she was working. Once she was finished, I was able to feel
two or three contractions and then the medicine set in. It was unbelievable.
Why anyone would not want an epidural is a mystery to me! Within minutes I was
able to relax and my mood drastically changed. I was able to get comfortable
and knew I was ready to get some sleep. We called/texted a few people to update
them and then turned out the lights to get some rest.
Kurt and I slept so much that night! We got a
good 7-8 hours of awesome rest. After about 4 hours, I could tell my epidural
was wearing off. I ended up getting some more medicine about every 4 hours or
so to make sure I stayed comfortable. At 7am I could hear the nurses switching.
I could hear my nurse updating the new nurse, Amy, with what was going on with
me. Then I heard Amy call Dr. Moon to let her know that she was going to start
me on pitocin because after 7 hours, I was still at 6 cm. Amy came in to our
room to introduce herself and let me know that she had just put an order in for
pitocin. She said that my contractions were still not consistent enough and that's
probably why I wasn't dilating. {Side note - this was over 24 hours after my
labor started and my contractions still weren't consistently 5 minutes apart.
Thank God I didn't wait any longer for them to get closer together at home
because they never did on their own!!!}
Because epidurals are so awesome, I didn't feel
the pitocin kick in at all. A couple hours after she started the drip, Amy came
in to tell me that my contractions were now consistently coming every two to
three minutes. Thankfully, I didn't feel a thing! She continued to check me and
while the contractions were getting closer together, I was stuck at 6cm. She
told us she was going to give my body a little more time to dilate and if it
didn't, they would insert an internal fetal monitor to check the strength of my
contractions.
My parents called us after they went to mass and
wondered if they could come up for a visit. This was around 9am and we had
pretty much just woken up. They brought Kurt some breakfast and hung out for a
bit. It was nice to have visitors since we had been there for so long. Once
they left, we decided to put a movie on to try and pass some time. Shortly
after, Dr. Moon came in for the first time. They went ahead and checked me
again and I was still at 6cm. They decided to put in the fetal monitor to check
things out. They had to leave that in for an hour or so before they could tell
if my contractions were strong enough or not.
We decided to rest a little more once they left
the room. About an hour or so later, Amy came in to report that my contractions
were as strong as they were ever going to get and that the strength of them
should be causing my body to dilate to 10cm. She did not need to increase
the pitocin. I went ahead and asked her at what point we'd do a c-section.
I had been in labor for so long that I wanted to have a vaginal delivery but we
were so ready to have the baby. I was definitely not opposed to having a
c-section if I needed one. Amy said they were going to give my body 2 hours
{this was right before 1pm -- the start of the IU game} to get from 6 to 10cm.
If I didn't fully dilate by 3pm, they were going to do a c-section. She asked
us if that was ok and if that would give us enough time to watch the game. We
assured her that the plan was perfect. :)
Kurt and I contacted both of our parents to let
them know of the plan. We told them that we'd let them know at 3 what was going
to happen. Around 2:30, my epidural started to wear off a little bit so I asked
Amy to call the anesthesiologist for me. She wondered if I wanted to wait until
3 to get checked or if I wanted her to just see what was going on at that
point. I told her to just check me because if my body wasn't doing anything
they might as well start prepping the OR for the surgery. As she checked me she
got this look of disbelief on her face...I was 10cm and ready to start pushing
when I felt ready! We couldn't believe it! We were pretty much ready for a
c-section.
As she started prepping the room and getting all
the supplies together, we finished watching IU beat Michigan St. I was getting
more uncomfortable as the game was finishing up, so I wasn't totally paying
attention. I was hoping that the anesthesiologist would hurry up and
give me some more meds! He came in but only gave me a little bit of medicine.
They didn't want me to have too much so that I could push. When the game was
over, we turned off the TV, Dr. Moon came in, and I got started pushing! {Kurt
quickly texted our parents to let them know I was ready to push...they were
shocked! They all came to the hospital at this point and waited for the big
news in the waiting room!} This was shortly after 3pm. The next two hours went
pretty quickly for me because I was pushing every 2 to 3 minutes when I had a
contraction. Midway through, the pain was starting to come back. They went
ahead and decided it was best for me to get more epidural medicine because I
wasn't able to push very well with the pain I was feeling. Thank goodness I got
more medicine! It helped me relax and push much better.
At 5:12 pm, our little girl was born. Within
seconds, everything changed. I felt a ton of pressure once she was born and
could tell that she was out. I heard, "It's a girl!" and the next
thing I knew she was being whisked away to the warming station and 5 or 6 NICU
nurses and doctors were rushing in the room. Norah was not crying. I know
enough about babies to know that something was really wrong at this point and I
completely lost it. Not only was I emotional from just having a baby {A GIRL!}
and being in labor for 39 hours, but now my little baby wasn't breathing for
all I could tell! The worst part...there was not a single thing I could do. I
laid in the bed helpless crying out, "She's not crying! She's not
crying!" as the doctors and nurses tried to update me on her status and
reassure me that in fact she was breathing. At this point, I
had absolutely no idea what in the world happened. Amy and Dr.
Moon commented the whole pushing process at how well the baby was tolerating
labor/my contractions so I didn't know where everything went downhill. We later
found out that Norah scored a 1 on her one minute APGAR test. The scores go
from 0 (being the worst) to 10. Pretty scary.
The doctors/nurses worked on Norah for a few
minutes {what felt like hours to me} in our room before swaddling her up and
taking her to the NICU. They did bring her over to me for a quick peek before
leaving the room. I was so confused and worried at this point. I had no idea
what all just happened and pretty much thought that my baby was going to die.
So many bad thoughts kept circling my head and I didn't know what to do. Once
Dr. Moon had me cleaned up and Kurt and I had calmed down a bit, we started
talking about what in the world just happened.
Norah's umbilical cord was around her neck but it
was never tight. On the very last push the cord tugged and tightened around her
neck. As this happened, she became shocked and took a big gasp. When babies are
born, they are supposed to cry because there is so much fluid that needs to come
out of their mouths/lungs. When Norah gasped, she inhaled the fluid that she
had been living in for the past 9 months. Her lungs became full of fluid,
making it difficult for her to breath. She wasn't crying, she was gasping for
air. I'm so glad I wasn't able to see any of this going on. Kurt watched the
whole thing unfold before him...how scary! Dr. Moon tested the oxygen
levels in the cord blood. Thankfully, the oxygen levels in the cord blood was
not low because Dr. Moon was able to cut it from being around her neck so
quickly.
Once all the doctors and nurses left the room,
Kurt and I just sat there in disbelief. We couldn't believe that we had a
girl. We absolutely couldn't believe we had such a small baby! And we were
shocked at the events that unfolded in the last hour or so. I was in no mood to
see anyone because I knew I'd totally loose it. However, I knew we couldn't
keep our families waiting any longer. They had been there for a long time and
it was now well after 6:00. I told Kurt that he should probably go to the
waiting room and let our families know the news but that I absolutely didn't
want anyone to come back to see me.
So there I was, all alone in this huge hospital
room. I had no idea what was going on with my new baby. I lost it.
Kurt came back to the room and wanted to know if
I wanted to eat. You would think I would have been starving, but I couldn't
even think about food. I was really thirsty though and he was able to go across
the hall to get me a sprite. Amy came in and asked if she could take our camera
to the NICU to take some pictures of Norah and check in on her. This helped
calm me a little. She was able to give us a little update on her. She also
reminded me that I really needed to eat. She went and grabbed a ton of snacks for
us. We got news from the nurses that we would get to go see Norah in a little
while before I moved to my post-partum room. Kurt went to the waiting room to
let our parents know that they probably weren't going to get to see Norah
anytime soon and they should probably go grab dinner while waiting. He asked if
they could bring us back some food too.
Amy came back with some snacks for us and to say
goodbye because her shift was over. Thank God we had her the whole day. What an
amazing nurse she is! I am so thankful for everything she did for us. As she
was walking out of the room, she said, "See you in about two years!"
We all started laughing and I was thinking, "No way in hell I'll be back
in two years after what just happened!" Whenever baby #2 comes around, I
will be praying for a nurse half as good as Amy is. Maybe we'll even be lucky
enough to have her again!
Around 7:30ish, a nurse came in and told us she
was going to take us to see Norah. She prepped us for what she'd look like, but
also told us that we weren't allowed to touch her or arouse her in any way
because of some test she was having done at 9pm. Over two hours after
delivering Norah, we were finally able to see her and talk to her. It was the
worst feeling in the world to see her hooked up to all the machines. I would
have done anything in that moment to take all the pain away from her. It was
even worse when she started to cry and we couldn't do a thing for her. I'll
never forget that.
We stayed in her NICU room for a little while. I
remember feeling a little disconnected from her, like she wasn't really mine.
The whole experience felt so surreal.
We left her room so that she could have her test
done and we could get all of our things moved into our new room. As Kurt was
wheeling me down to our new room, our families returned from dinner with a HUGE
pizza for us! But, the nurse was also waiting for me to do my first check up.
We asked our families to leave the room so the nurse could check me and I could
get situated in bed. Once she was finished, our families came back in our room
and we were finally able to eat. I don't think we've ever eaten so quickly in
our lives! Our families visited for a little while and then decided to head
home. By the time they left, it was time for the nurse to do another check up
on me.
We ended up needing to stay in our room for a
little while longer because the nurse didn't want me to leave before I needed
to get my next check up. Once she checked me for the third time, she was able
to help me into a wheel chair and we headed back to Norah's room. Around
midnight, we were finally able to hold our little girl for the first
time.
{Hooked up to so many things...}
The next morning while I showered, Kurt went down
to check on Norah. He came back with good news. She was doing so well they were
able to take her off the oxygen. Norah didn't start eating until almost 24
hours after she was born. It was a bit stressful trying to get her interested
in eating. Once they confirmed that she did not in fact have pneumonia,
the doctors wanted to make sure that she was eating enough before they would
allow us to take her home. Once she was finally able to get latched on and
interested, she was quite the eating champ...and still is now!
{Finally getting to spend time together.}
Within the first 48 hours of her life, Norah
proved to all of us how strong she is and that she'll never give up. It was
amazing to see how calm she was when the nurses and doctors picked and prodded
at her. Kurt and I will never forget the neonatal doctor coming in to tell us
that we were going to get to take her home just 48 hours after her delivery.
Even she was shocked that she was able to give us that news. As she left the
room, I broke down into tears. Those 48 hours were the most scary and tiring of
my life, and we were SO happy to be able to see Norah all wire free and ready
to go home.
{I hated seeing her with all these cords. It was so nice when they all came off!}
We thank God every day for our precious, healthy
little girl. We are so thankful for everything that the nurses and doctors did
during our short stay at the hospital. They did an amazing job. Thankfully the
complications that occurred during birth have no lingering effects. She is
completely healthy and doing really well. Although that whole experience
was painful, stressful, and unimaginable, this is Norah's story and we wouldn't
change it a bit.
